Post by sapphy on Mar 29, 2007 16:17:24 GMT -5
i'm not really sure who checks the forums anymore. I'm not really sure that the people who do check care what i have to say... regardless.. i wanted to say goodbye. i once told myself that i would never quit ff.. and yet, events have conspired against me. there was once a time when i could log in and have so many people to talk to that i had a hard time maintaining conversation with anyone. there was once a time that i had a busy linkshell with plenty of things to do and chat to giggle at. there was once a time when it was easy to find things to do. there was once a time that leveling was fun. there was once a time when i logged in and was excited, not on the verge of crying. i haven't logged into ff since january. and even then it was for an event. i love events... and yet i couldn't even force myself to log on for the valentines event. my ff 'life' has evolved into something that is none of the things i remember and miss so fiercely. every time i log on, my emotions rapidly go from excited to slightly sad and then to the point where i don't ever want to log on again. i know that i was in no way part of eo as long as many of you.. and yet.. i always sort of felt that i was, if that makes any sense. a long time ago, i met jon in qufim and he became one of my closest friends. i decided i wanted to be in eo.. unfortunately for me, it had a level requirement... i think it was 50 at the time... my whm was 36. by the time my whm was 50(i level very slowly) the level req had raised to 60. and then later, to my frustration, when i hit 60, it had raised to 65. and again at 65, it was then 70. and when i hit 70, it had gone up to 75. when i got to 74, the ls was no longer accepting whm applications. i was so livid, i didn't play whm again for about 4 months. finally, i was tricked into leveling my whm and i ended up getting 75. it then sat at 56xp into 75 for a very long time- i vowed never to play whm again. the entire time my frustrating scenario was going on, i was in love with ff in general. and i came to the point where i decided that if i couldn't actually be in eo, i would just surround myself with people from eo... i suppose i'm rambling... anywho... i ended up joining eo past it's peak... and i loved you- all of you, even those of you that disliked me because of who you were convinced i was or upset by who spent time with me... /em shakes her head. i haven't played regularly since november..? december..? i never meant to quit.. i didn't.. i just.. didn't log on as much... and then even less... then i thought it was a break... and then a long break.. i've still been paying for my account this entire time... it's still active... anyways... the point is, i haven't been playing... and i'm shipping out to boot camp in 10 days.. and so- in conclusion... you all have a place in my heart, but this is goodbye.... *huggles*
A bunch of us have myspace accounts and there's always the other forums; if you want to keep in touch with us that's simply your decision. 
